Cosmology of Practice
Lately, I've been lingering with the question:
What is in between body and ground?
This question is honing my intentionality around my practice, in its fractal from deeply intimate personal process to the tending of collective emergence.
Here is what I know about my practice right now...
I am tracking that depth of developmental dissociation between body and ground, mind and sensation, the threshold point of contact with the wider ecosystem that for my kin remains blocked by an ancestral abandonment-pain-body originating in the developmental rupture from initiatory practices that wove us into secure attachment with more-than-human life.
This rupture has resulted in the ravenous trauma vortexes that accumulate in the liminal when a body is unable to access a felt sense of support and so the life force contracts because the pain is too much to be felt without accompaniment. I witness the ways in which this pattern is a developmental wounding, closing the system into a SOLID STATE threat response of isolated self-consciousness, cutting off the flow of energy between body and ground. I see how this developmental wounding results in dissociation from the sensate spirits of erotic-aliveness and death-surrender, perpetuating existential terror of right-sized sovereignty and intimacy, and structuring mass society through domination ideologies deployed to control the chronic threat response of isolation.
I carry the bone-deep knowing that this ancestral pain-body can be met through a practice of re-membering relationship to a distributed network of animist somatic support that opens the organism into a FLUID STATE so existential experiences of charge can be metabolized back into Long Body-consciousness and the liberated life force re-integrated into emergent processes of transformation.
I am practicing from an entangled ecosystem of animist somatics that interweaves the root systems of teachers and collaborators with my own taproot of ancestral knowings. What I speak is a harmonic transmutation of many voices, including Kris Nourse, Azul Valerie Thome, Francis Weller, Annemiek van Helsdingen, Susan Raffo, Liz Koch, Tada Hozumi, Dare Sohei, Larissa Kaul, Deb Dana, and Sarah Peyton. Other influential beings in my unfolding have been the moon, a birch tree in Vermont, an oak tree in California, and the turtles of Bass Lake marsh on Dakota land in Mni Sota Makoce.